His last wish

Ravi woke up to have a glass of water; heard the tinkle of breaking glass!
He froze.
With his heart thudding, he ran towards Ayesha’s room.
The intruder was standing at the top of the staircase. The bullet caught Ravi straight in the heart.
He wished he had said I love you, one last time!


This fiction post is part of the Drabble Week in the group Marathon Bloggers.

The broken promise

Then: He said “I will love you today, tomorrow and always.”
Now: he says “If you talk to me like THAT, I can’t stand it. I feel angry.”
What happened to all the promises of loving and caring?
When did the ego creep in? And why? Love ain’t enough?
Left with broken promises, she cried.


This fiction post is part of the Drabble Week in the group Marathon Bloggers.

From a baby to a little person

N and I read and talk before he goes to bed. Tonight’s conversation, was a wee bit inspired by this post from Mindful Dad.  We sat opposite each other and I told him why I loved him – all the reasons I could think of and more 🙂 I did not expect him to say anything back, after all he did not understand why or what I was doing; he hadn’t read the article. Or so I thought.

Turns out, he does understand the language of love, of emotions, of feelings. So he told me, what he loved about me. He loved that I took care of him – whether he got hurt or not, that I read to him every night, that I brought things for him or not sometimes, that I took him running with me, that I gave him kisses and hugs, that he could talk to me about anything (including his crush on a girl in his class – yep his first), that he wouldn’t ever go away leaving me or wouldn’t want to change me for any other mommy in the world!! Yay!! Oh boy it was one of the best feelings in the world, the way he said it in a very matter of fact tone, as if this was the simplest, truest, fact. Even better than S telling me why he loves me. Sorry S! Your li’l guy just took over 😉

Oh and before sleeping, N thanked god tonight for “Giving me 15 days of holidays so that I can be with my friends in Malpe!”


Me to N:Please roll up and button up your shirt sleeves. That will look nicer.

N: I don’t like rolling up the sleeves. That makes me uncomfortable around the elbow.

Me: The last time you wore it you had sleeves down. Can’t you do it just this once, for me?

N: I don’t feel like mamma.

Me: Okay! (Pouty face – coz I seriously felt that the shirt and N would look better with rolled up sleeves)

N [calmly]: My life, my choice. Your life, your choice.

Me [Thinking is this kid seriously just a 5-year-old??]: N there are some things you can choose for yourself but there are other things that you will have to leave for mom and dad to decide till you are a li’l older.

N: Ok Mamma – I will listen to you for all the important things. But this is not an important thing no? Just my shirt sleeves.

Me [As if the light just went on inside a dark room]: Yes, N. you are right, this ain’t important. Keep your sleeves whichever way you want them [Smiling to myself on the inside, the kid has his fundas clear,  reinforcement works and choose your battles Sim – it is the important stuff that matters!] 🙂


Read this yesterday – http://butterflywriterblog.wordpress.com/2013/02/06/17-things-boys-need-from-their-moms/ and like it! Very thoughtful, sweet and emotional article.

Happy Holidays or Happy There-will-be-holidays-very-soon 🙂

N speak latest

N: Mumma when will daddy come home? I miss daddy. I miss him a lot.

Me: hmm I miss him too sometimes. He will be back soon [from the office].

N: But I know he is working hard. For us, his family! He is working very hard so that we have money to have fun.

Me: Umm hmm

N: Like I am working hard……. for my school, for Bangalore, for India!! [Now where did that come from??] We all are working so hard. It is good to work hard. Hard working people………..zzzzzzzzzz

That completes our just-before-sleep lecture!


N: Mamma I am writing my ABCs and I forgot how to write B. Can you come and help me?

Me: N I am in the middle of something. I will finish it and come. Can you please wait?

N: I can, but I don’t want to. [What??? Why??? Ok whatever. Fair enough]

Me: Hmm. You can ask Naani [grandmother].

N: [Wide eyed, I-don’t-believe-this look] Naani knows ABCD!! Cool!!



N’s first self dictated story

Once upon a time there was a tiger. He was walking, then a hunter came, then he started to run. Then the hunter caught him.

Then a rat came and got the net and bit the net.



N was sitting in his daadu’s (grandfather) lap in the balcony. Both of them were enjoying the views of night lights.

Daadu to N: I am sorry that you got hurt today [The kid had scraped himself at a couple of places while riding his scooter in the evening, with daadu supervising him].

N: Why are you sorry daadu? How is it your fault? You did tell me to stop and go slow. Don’t worry, I will be fine soon.

Daadu smiling, mommy smiling too 🙂

I ran 10 kms for the first time ever!!!

Recorded my stats (to track future performances), learnt a life lesson, broke a mental barrier and made a new goal.

Yay!! I did it. This past Saturday was my first ever 10K run. At the beginning of my training program with Runner’s High (RH) if someone had asked me if I thought I could do a 10K run, I would have probably said a very emphatic NO! If you have read my previous posts on running and my progress, you would know I was skeptical about it.

I had this mental barrier which stopped me from believing that I could run 10 kms non stop, except the food, water pit stop breaks and a few walking intervals as needed. But now I am a believer, both in the process, training and methodology followed by RH and in the fact that anybody can do it. All you have to do is follow the schedule, give your 100%, have a commitment and some passion. It works!!

Note: This doesn’t mean that one can’t do it on their own. I know of SO many people who train on their own and are awesome runners. I personally feel more motivated in a group with guidelines, schedules etc.

The run itself went by great. I was mentally and physically prepared. Had a good dinner the night before – carbs, protein and fat. The morning of the run had 2 small bananas and a peanut butter and jam sandwich 30 to 45 mins before the run. Started off with some music and turned my Sportstracker on. Ran non stop for the 1st 2 kms. Then walked for 2 mins. Ran non stop for the next 2 kms. Reached the pit stop. Had a banana. Walked for 2 mins. Ran for 2 more kms. Walked for 3 mins. Ran the next 2 kms. So the first 8 k  was easy and went by without much fuss. No aches, pains or fatigue. After the 8th km, I decided to amp up my pace to a higher pace than what I normally run at. I wanted to finish strong and fast. That’s where I went wrong. I could not sustain the fast pace for too long and felt out of breath in the 9th km. slowed down, walked a bit, caught my breath back. Ran again and finished the 10K. Not exactly the way I would have liked to but nonetheless it felt good!

Looking back in hindsight I would have never imagined myself running a 10K. Have always been at an average fitness level.  So doing this was a milestone for me. A personal achievement and will be a happy memory 🙂

I follow a runner via her FB page Life in the day of a runner and she says

I know there’s this idea that the “faster we are, the better we are.” Is speed really what defines you as a “good runner?” If you’re FAST, why then you are a great runner. And well, if you’re SLOW….. uh… not so much.

Well, what is FAST? For that matter, what is SLOW? Who defines what is slow and what is fast? I’ll tell you who defines it: YOU. ONLY YOU. There will ALWAYS be someone who is faster than you and someone who is slower than you. If you are giving 100% EVERY time you get out there on a training run or in a race, then you are going at just the right speed.

Read this after my run and it was so apt. Made me smile 🙂


Image courtesy – Running on the fly

The run also reinforced the life lesson that whatever you do in life do it for yourself or because of your likes and beliefs. Don’t do it because you think someone else will like it, appreciate it, admire you for it and similar sentiments. If people do that, it’s great. But if they don’t and you had pinned your hopes and happiness on it then you are in for a disappointment. I am not being cynical, just practical.

Run, walk, paint, sing, dance, work, not work, eat less, eat more, cook, play – do whatever – IF you want to and IF you like it!

My takeaway goal from this 10K, is to do a time goal 10K in the next season when I join RH. I am inspired and hooked to running now and want to work on improving my pace. But one step at a time. I love journeys, destinations will happen on their own 🙂

Enough gyaan baantna (knowledge sharing)! Here are my stats from my 1st 10K. Capturing them here for my personal record keeping.

10k run

Have a great week and stay fit and fabulous!!

To do or not to do!

I am stuck at a point where I want to choose one of the 2 options I have regarding a certain some-thing.
I am not able to decide and have been pondering over it for quite some time.
The heart or the head is not giving any hints or leaning in any direction. Neither is the universe!
Does that happen to you? Stuck in an impasse?

Just then I came across this pic on FB (again! I know I am a social media addict!).
Hmmm so is this the sign the universe is sending? Maybe!

To do or not to do!


Be Happy!

Be Happy!

A friend shared this on her FB page this morning. The pic just reinforced what I believe in. Li’l things that make a big difference. I want to stay inspired, try new things, learn about things I don’t know, read books, exercise, be fit, stay connected with friends and family and the best one – let my heart be my guide!! Stay happy people, listen to that song that makes you happy, go on. I am listening to “You are Beautiful” by James Blunt.

P.S. – I couldn’t find the original source on the net for this pic. If you know, do let me know too!

Fast. Free. Fly. Run.

I had a long run this past weekend. Saturday was 6K. I did a run/walk combination of 2 min run/3 min walk. The initial 2 rounds of running were at easy pace, slow jog types. That hill I always have to cross, once I do this initial phase slow and steady then I feel more power in the remainder of the run.

For the first time I felt that I could run at a faster pace than my normal “easy run/jog”. Even though I couldn’t continue the pace for the full 2 min stretch but it felt great. That is how I want to run eventually. Free, fast, flying-like!

I envy people with long strides, fast pace, long legs, and strong lungs! I see them running past me during the training sessions. I hope to run like them some day.

Sunday was a 3K in a lovely place – lots of greenery, wild greens growing all over. I could hear birds chirping and the wind blowing through trees. I did the 1K warm up run non stop and then the foot drills were smoother too. Less gasping for breath especially after the high knees 🙂 The post run stretches and strengthening were great. I do the strengthening on Tuesdays and Thursdays too. And am totally liking what it is doing to my abs. Fit into one lower dress size after a long long time 🙂

I still have this nag in my head of not being able to run all the distance. Our coaches say walking is important. It helps you run faster in fact.

I say, why would you call it running then? Would be walk and run, isn’t it? I understand breaks like a water stop or snack break but not the stage I am in right now. I feel my stamina is very less compared to a lot of others in my running group. Again, no comparison needed. But the thought sometimes just pops up!

I am doing what it takes, following the schedule to a T, showing up for all sessions, doing the self runs and cross training. And I assume that all this will help me improve as a runner. I am enjoying what I am doing and that’s what matters in the end 🙂

Happy Tuesday people. Have a good rest of the week. And stay fab and stay fit!!



Progress? Don’t Know. Maybe!

If someone asks me if the magic has happened yet, if I feel I can run 10K smoothly. The answer would be umm err <pause> I don’t know.

Frankly I think my state of running has gone a little down hill from when I started. I feel like I get breathless soon, muscle cramps, fatigue, sleep deprivation all of these have set in. This is Week 3 of running. Experienced runners say it gets better after the first 3 to 4 weeks. I am looking forward to see things getting better 🙂

Apart from that I ran my first 4K last Saturday which was pretty decent. I ran/walk the distance and felt good after that. But on Sunday I felt breathless soon and did more walk than run. Had cramps in upper thighs too after the whole workout which are better now.  Lets see how this weekend goes. I think I just need to do it easy, slow and steady.

This would be a lovely run path along the water, won’t it?

run path


Turned 33 last week. Now I believe that saying “Age is just a number”. Doesn’t feel like 33, however that is supposed to feel. It is exciting. So much to do, so much to learn, so much to experience. Loving it! I know I am on a high and expect a low coming soon. I believe in cycles in life – highs and lows. Natural rhythms. Karma. Destiny.


N is growing up into a lovely kid. All moms believe that of their children, I guess. He has a lot of compassion and empathy now. Is curious, questions everything around him, innovative, loving and charming 😉 Is sensitive too.

May all these qualities flourish and may I have more patience to raise him, be a mother, a bodyguard (as he calls me sometime), a confidante. Amen!


We do our bit of how-was-your-day, what made you sad today, what made you happy, at night before we sleep. Last night N tells me a boy in his class called the teacher “Hey sexy babe!” And then that child got a time out.

Then he told me he learnt a new “S word” from friends in the park. S-hole.


I asked him if he knew what it meant. He didn’t. I told him he shouldn’t use these words at this age. They are rude and show disrespect towards the other person. When he grows up and understands the meaning he can decide for himself.

He said Okay mumma! Gave me a good night hug and kiss and slept off.

Love you my baby!